Once again, my host parents managed to ruin my night by not showing up when they said they would. I am now in bed and not at a bar with my friends like I planned, but I guess they did me a favor since I’m getting a cold. I’m just so, so, so tired. My class got cancelled because not enough people took it, my non-boyfriend decided to be an asshole, I’m working more than what I’m supposed to and my friends in Chile are not being helpful by demanding my presence when they know it’s impossible. My mom dreams of my death on a regular basis because she misses me like crazy and is scared of something happening to me so far away from home.
Honestly? Some days I feel like just packing up and going home, screw everything. Then I remember there’s a reason why I’m here, I look around me and California wins me over. My host kids love me and I’n crazy about them, and I’ve made friends with awesome people. Things are undoubtedly more difficult than I thought, but in spite of everything, I still love this place and I plan to get over this funk I’m in. I know there are hard times to come —non-boyfriend and host parents and shit— but I refuse to let it ruin my time here completely. I’m going to be fine. I have to.
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coni-maginacion said:
Don’t let them ruin your time in California!! I understand your problem completely, sometimes people here make me wish to come back to Chile but… there’s a reason to be in the states and the only thing we should do is have a great time :) animo
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